Friday, July 10, 2009

Baby A

Now, I'm not having twins. In fact, according to my ultrasound tech this morning it was never confirmed that I was having twins, even though they told me I was. I'm sad a little but mostly just annoyed that I wasn't told that there was a chance that I wasn't having twins. I went to my regular office today and saw my regular ultrasound tech (she was on vacation when I had my first ultrasound). She came in to the room and gave me a hug, told me congratulations and said, "so, were looking for twins maybe?". I said, "maybe?" and she just asked me to lie down and said she would take a look. Baby A came up on the ultrasound and I saw its heart flickering away and she said it was a good size. Then she moved over to "Baby B" and said that there was nothing inside the gestational sac. She asked me if I was okay and I said I was. She said there is a possibility that she can't see an yolk sac inside the gestational sac because it could be pressed up against the wall but she's pretty sure that there is nothing inside of the sac. She asked the girl that was taking down the measurements what the measurements were for the yolk sac for Baby B the last time. She said that there were no measurements for either yolk sac from the last time and that it said they were not visible and could not be determined. So, she told me that there was probably never really anything in Baby B's gestational sac. I'm angry that no one bothered to tell me this the last time. Don't I have a right to know what is going on inside my own body?! Even if it is a little disheartening to tell me that they don't see anything, isn't that better than telling me I'm having twins when I'm not. I'm a little saddened but also a bit relieved. One is definitely easier than two. And I think Cole will have an easier time with only one baby taking over the spotlight for a bit:) I'm am thrilled that the baby is doing well and I guess that's all I can really ask for.

3 comments:

Sarah said...

I can't believe they told you that you were making two babies when in fact they couldn't determine it at that time. Very sad for on so many levels. But, keep your chin up . . . worse case scenario you really DIDN'T have twins in there and you just have to help yourself get over the roller-coaster of emotions. If you DID have twins in there maybe it's something like "vanishing twin syndrome" which if very common and you just have to realize that it happens all the time and isn't because of anything you did. Hang in there and relax, keep doing what you're doing to Baby A healthy!

Beth said...

Man, Leeanne! That is frustrating, with a capital F. I'm sorry for the roller coaster of emotion this has put you on. I'm glad the baby you have looks healthy. Lesson learned, I guess. We tend to think the medical personnel we trust KNOWS WHAT THEY'RE TALKING ABOUT. Guess not always.

John and Heather Davis said...

Why in the world would they tell you that you were if there was a possiblity that you werent?! how frustrating!! I am sorry!
I am excited that baby a is doing well that is great news!!