Wednesday, August 8, 2007

Travis is on my sh!t list...

He left for Wyoming on Saturday to go pour a ski lift on the top of a mountain in Jackson Hole. He doesn't seem to understand that although he "compromised" and is only going up for a week, he is also leaving a very emotional, tired and needy pregnant wife at home alone!! I love him and I want him to have a good time but to hear about what a fabulous time he is having and how cold and beautiful it is and how he wants to stay there for the rest of his life makes me want to kick him in the nuts when he gets home, rather than give him a hug. I went to my first childbirth class last night and if it wasn't for my WONDERFUL sister-in-law Heather (whose anniversary was last night), I would have been the only single mom at the class. Deep down, I really don't mind that Travis is gone but when it comes to the little things that I would like him around for, I get pretty upset that he had to chose NOW to leave me alone. I am glad it is only for a week though and not the original THREE MONTHS he was hoping for. Can you believe that?!!! He was actually contemplating leaving for 3 months when our baby was going to be due in 3 months!!! He wanted us both to go up there and it took some determination on my part to convince him that there were a MILLION reasons why that would not be a good idea. In short, I have doctor appointments to keep, classes I had signed up and paid for, my insurance doesn't cover me if I go to Wyoming, so if there was a problem with the pregnancy or I went into preterm labor, I would be screwed, the baby's room is not ready, we are in the middle of renovating our home...the list seriously goes on and on. I swear, sometimes he just gets tunnel vision and thinks that what he wants to do is the best and only way to do it. Luckily, I have learned how to talk him down most of the time and if nothing else works, I just cry and he hates to see me cry, so he concedes:) So, he'll be home in4 days and I have a list a mile long of things I need him to do. Our carpet got into town yesterday and if he were here, I could have had it installed today:( Oh well, what's done is done and he just needs to come home. Damn, I'm a needy, emotional butt:) I love him, I love him, I love him (just have to keep reminding my pregnant self of this). And that's enough of a hormonal rant for me today:)

A HUGE thanks to Sarah B. for making my baby invites and sending them out!! I've received phone calls telling me how cute and how very "me" they are...no duckies, chicks or bunnies:), they are just "cool". I can't wait to see them! I am really excited for my shower and can hardly wait for my sister's wedding and the arrival of my little man!! There is SO much going on in these next few months, it is insane!! Time is flying by and it seems my list things to do gets longer instead of shorter with each passing day. I am trying to do as much as I can everyday, even if it is just a little at a time to get everything ready. I'm so tired and excited...I feel a bit delirious!!

1 comment:

barlows said...

GIRRRLLL, isn't it fun to be preggers? You are so normal (so's Travis it sounds like :)) I still have your invite, and thought I'd give it to you when I pick up the pics of the two of you in the next few days. I got the addresses and will be sending the other ones off later today (so by tomorrow's mail.) I'm glad people have liked them, I was partial to the paper. Let me know how "in the middle" of things you're gonna be and I'll drop by sometime. Tyler's been gone since Monday and it doesn't get much more un-emotional once the babies are out of the womb. TTYL.